and what was there
is no longer there now
an empty swing swings back in forth in the wind
a reminder of the past moments
the moments of what was there
and what was there is no longer there now

a memory so fainlty dissapearing
a heart worth holding, no longer mine
and all that fighting and screaming
just for naught and here I am alone...yet again
and what was there is no longer there now

the burning of my own misery screams at me
and tortues me
yet another a reminder of what I have done
and another perfect opportunity I have ruined
and what was there is no longer there now

I cared and I grew to care more and more each day
little did I know it would manifest into a monster
there no longer was I an escape route
I became part of the one problem that you wanted out of
and what was there is no longer there now

and I blame no other but myself
for I am a falure and nothing more than just a forgotten love
a lustful passion burned out
nothing more than a faint memory now
I am not even worth a phone call
and what was there is no longer there now

and what was there is no longer there now
so be happy and be in love because I failed you
and I will succumb
to this consequence yet again
here I stand in my corner alone
amidst the destruction I left in my own wake
here I am....just blank, bare-boned, and taking the pain
and what was there is no longer there now

and so the phone doesn't ring
the silence continues
the avoidance begins
the distance is between us
the awkwardness festers
and the pain deepens
the compulsiveness aches
and the impulse breaks me down
and what was there is no longer there now

so the tears will flow silently and painfully each time
the nightmares persist and the sorrow continues
lord only knows where this will go
its all gone, burned ruined and yet another has been scared away
pushed into the arms of another because of a compulsive lover
goodbye sweet friend I hope we meet again when the world stops spinning
and we all fall down....
and what was there is no longer there now